The Value of Disorder

I just decided that I need to write on this because, damn it, I seem to have a lot of disorder in my life and my deep faith tells me that there is a reason for everything. Yes, everything. The socks on the floor that had a match for a total to two seconds after they made it through the front door, the piles of jackets, toys, backpacks, the book case over stuffed with stuff come on you know what I mean, right? Maybe not, I know that there are people with neat houses who do not clean all day long. Seriously. How they do it I think is a state of mind.

I think maybe disorder tells us something about our lives. It gives us an external clue of when we are on the mark and when we are not.

It is not only whether there is a mess but also how we feel about the mess. There are messes that we look at and know there is order just underneath not very far below the surface of what we see. Then there are messes that do not bother us at all because we look and instead of a true mess we see our choices made and accepted. We went to visit the grandmother an hour away instead of doing dishes or took our child to ballet after work. These messes are temporary, we can feel it in our bones; it is when we despair and the mess seems permanant that we should look at the clutter and disorganization as a clue to an inner state that needs our compassionate attention.

What does your environment tell you? How do you listen?

"Perserverence is stubbornness put to good work"

Okay, I think I have come up with my very first ever quotable quote! (if I am mistaken and someone has already said this please break it to me gently:) How thrilling! I am in love with these words! Perseverance is stubbornness put to good work.

I think it so important to be stubborn. Just think about it for a moment. I am not talking about a blind flailing stubbornness. I am talking about lets get off our butts (mental verbal or otherwise) and just really commit; let nothing stand in our way. I am talking about some serious task commitment.

I have recently uncovered my stubbornness and I have fallen deeply and willingly in love! Have you ever been advised to argue with your self? It is a marvelous practice. I have found that it brings forth many opportunities to strengthen your inner will and uncover soft spots in your thought structures. I think many do it with out realizing it but it is a wonderful process to bring to your consciousness and fully revel in it!


Doing is what I must do in order to achieve; too often I hide and retreat. Then I must rediscover what I uncovered with less consciousness and tenaciousness in the past. I have uncovered once again that the joy of life is in it's work, it's challenge. Not in it's grumbling, nor in its sloth. Being and doing are the twin heart beats of a life well lived!

In honor of my first quote I have added some fun quotes at the bottom of my blog. They will change daily so be sure to visit frequently to get your bite sized doses of wisdom and thought.

Thank You for Reading,
JB

Contentment and Peace

A   friend and I discussed these two words recently and the ideas that spread and trail behind them, I expressed in a small way my views on these two words and it has inspired me to revisit how these ideas affect my use of time.  

Contentment for me implies that where you are is good enough, that there is no further to reach and nothing that you feel motivated to change.  It says to me "Hey where I am is great, why would I ever want things to change?"

I don't want to completely knock contentment but I think that it is best in small doses, think 'savoring the moment'.  After having achieving a goal it is nice to reflect on and enjoy your accomplishment.  It recharges the batteries and allows one to absorb the deeper teachings of that leg of your journey.  

However, lets not wallow!  Stagnation is no one's friend. 

Is this the way one should live life striving for contentment?  How would it look if we all were content?   Would we ever again dare to venture forth out side of our day to day lives to create or discover something new?

Excellent question.  I suggest you answer it for yourself.

Peace is a very different word for me to me it expresses a certain ability to create flow within. Where you have a strong inner foundation of reality that is flexible as well, you often have inner peace.  You can accept where you are and how things work in this now but are willing to input new information and get different results.  

For me peace is an essential tool that if I have it on board I can navigate my daily life with grace and joy because there is no fear.  My motivations and goals spring from a source that is more pure than fear.

Peace arises and deepens as I uncover layer by layer my inner self and who I am.

JB

The Finite Flow

Finite
adjective

1.	having bounds or limits; not infinite; measurable.

2.	Mathematics. a. (of a set of elements) capable of being completely counted. b. not infinite or infinitesimal. c. not zero.

3.	subject to limitations or conditions, as of space, time, circumstances, or the laws of nature: man's finite existence on earth.

Profusion-
–noun

1.	abundance; abundant quantity.

2.	a great quantity or amount (often fol. by of).

3.	lavish spending; extravagance.

time
noun.1.

a. A nonspatial continuum in which events occur in apparently irreversible succession from the past through the present to the future.

b. An interval separating two points on this continuum; a duration: a long time since the last war; passed the time reading.

I love the sub-title of my blog because it captures my view of time so well. Exploring my conflict with time and how it progresses has been very interesting.

Perhaps I have read way too much quantum physics material but it does seem to be a sort of Schrödinger's cat situation where both, finite and profusion, are true of time all at once. At least that is until one perceives it as one or the other.

So my work is to perceive time as infinite and my capabilities as limited only by my choice of perspectives and my level of initiative.

If anyone got what I was saying... cool.

Definitions are from the the Free Dictionary by Farlex and Dictionary.com an Ask.com service

Where are we?

Well it is an interesting question isn't it with myriad answers, we are in this physical space, yes, but we are also in this mental space, and for many, a spiritual space. Is time use a mental exercise, of course. Is time use a spiritual exercise? I think many people would say yes actually.

Each moment is a separate and yet connected multi-faceted jewel. A jewel we can cradle with our awareness or we can let it pass us by it's rich beauty gone. Tenaciously we attempt to grip both the past and often a future; which we use our now to prepare for. Oddly we cannot hold anything except the now. This is idea of being present in the now has been filtered through many lenses. Newspaper, television sitcom, magazines, word of mouth, email advice, religious text etc...So you have probably already run across it.

The now.

The now...

THE NOW!

It seems for me that thinking this way provides relief but I also feel pressured, to take this moment into account and live it well. I once told a friend of mine that the only thing I must do to achieve happiness is to live this moment well.

That's it.

I have only run into true trouble when I don't think through what that looks like or when I attempt to do too much. For me it is as if I am over loading my washing machine in an attempt to catch up on laundry till nothing gets clean. In real life when I attempt too much I get nothing done, it is a terrible and overwhelming state.

As deepen my understanding of how to live each moment well, relief and peace increase and become a way of being.

Next time more thoughts on the Infinite Profusion of Time
JB

Accepting

Ok by saying that I wish to accept I mean that I intend to realize that my goals are or are not being accomplished fully and completely and then choose to do one of three things: Delegate, Set aside, or choose to sacrifice.

Delegate: To pass on a task to someone else

I often think I can accomplish more than I actually can and there for do not often choose to delegate. Also I hate not doing it myself.

Set Aside: to temporarily or permanently leave a task or goal unfinished

This is the one I am the worst at I choose my goals and desires very carefully and though I ask a lot of myself I know that each and every one of my goals are wonderful and meaningful to me.

Choose to Sacrifice: to trade in one ideal or perk in order to achieve the intended outcome

This is by far my favorite but it comes with a hefty price for example right now I am starting to drag and my day is only about half over because I decided to stay up late and clean my house last night. But I am so happy to be in a sane environment I don't really care how tired I am.

Once I begin to accept my actual state of being I find it much easier to move to deciding which tool is best suited to me and my goal(s).

Do you have any tools for achieving that you would like to share?

Breakthrough!

Ok here it is in all it's wonder and splendor; Joy and release. I have figured out part, perhaps even the main part, of why I have felt so deeply stuck in a mire of "but I don't want too!".

Now prior to the last year and a half I had nearly always felt motivated and up to it. As long I was interested then I was gung hoo and the stuff I wasn't interested in was not essential. I loved everything even washing dishes and organizing!

But what has changed in the last year or so? Well my standards of what I wanted to accomplish enlarged. I started getting more involved in my community which I wanted I started a business which I wanted I spent time with my two two year olds and bought a house and moved in and worked on getting flooring in all readily on the 'I want it' list. There is more, but you get the idea... So what does this mean? This means that I, who am utterly spoiled in the sense that I am used to suffering only minor (to me) difficulties and navigating them with ease, have had many of my goals not be achieved with quality or at all. So I have been feeling that my actions are not aligning with my inner drives. And as Suze Orman says our happiness arrises most readily when our actions are alighned with our inner truth/self. So my happiness has been faltering because although I was trying to act in ways that were true to my self I didn't accomplish them. So this has sapped me on soo many levels: emotionally, confidence wise, and even personal energy.

Next step accept, accept, accept. More on this in the next post!